If I’m Not Witnessed by Others, Do I Even Exist? - Bye bye social media!

This post is adapted from an episode of my newly rebranded Know Thyself Podcast — a sacred space where I share raw reflections, soul musings, and the truths I uncover on my own journey of self-discovery. If you’d like to keep walking this path with me — beyond the noise of social media — you can subscribe to my podcast, join my mailing list, or visit this website for updates and offerings.

If I’m Not Witnessed by Others, Do I Even Exist?

Hello, hello. I’m here in my little bubble — in my own world — feeling into something that’s both completely profound and wildly existential. It’s raw. It’s deep. It’s unpolished. And yet I feel the need to speak it out loud.

This isn’t a carefully crafted piece with frills and edits. It’s me, flowing in the moment, trusting that the words will land where they need to. Maybe it’s just for me, maybe it’s for you, maybe it’s for whoever needs a spark of recognition in their own life right now.

The Middle Road

A few days ago, we had a Full Moon in Aquarius. I didn’t clock it at the time, but I felt it. Big feelings, bubbling up from somewhere deep. Once I realised what was going on, it made sense.

Lately, I’ve been sitting with this idea of duality and polarity. My Libra Sun, Gemini Moon and Rising are wired for opposites — the twins, the scales, the both/and of life. But I’m feeling called to find the middle road. The space between extremes. The place that is both calm and chaotic, driven and restful, where everything is accepted and loved.

Hand to my heart, I feel that this middle road is where I want to walk from now on.

Breaking the Burnout Cycle

An opportunity has appeared — one I’ve probably been calling in for five or six years. A chance to stop. To be supported. To break the burnout cycle.

For so long I’ve been in this pattern: I rest just enough to feel “ready” again, then hit the ground running, say yes to everything, push hard… and burn out fast. Add to that the constant background hum of comparison on social media — seeing what others are doing, remembering ideas I once had but never acted on, feeling behind — and it’s a recipe for exhaustion.

I’m currently signed off work for my mental health. So why not take this as a genuine invitation to rest? To really go inwards. To come off social media for a year, disconnect from the noise, and meet myself again without the constant pull of other people’s energy.

The Fear of Not Being Witnessed

Here’s where it gets big. And scary.

If my life force — my creativity, my expression — isn’t witnessed, will I wither? Will I even exist? Those were the words that came out of my mouth the other day.

It made me think of the Observer Effect in quantum physics. When particles aren’t being observed, they flow as waves, exploring multiple possibilities at once. But the moment they’re watched, they collapse into a single, defined path.

I can feel myself in that. When I’m in my flow, unobserved, my creativity is expansive and free. But as soon as it’s being watched, it’s defined — fixed in one place.

There’s a part of me that’s terrified of going unwitnessed. And yet, I also know I need to witness myself first.

A Different Kind of Sharing

I’m not disappearing entirely. I’ll still be sharing through my Know Thyself Podcast and maybe more on YouTube. I’ll keep my website alive as a place to post my musings and creations — a space where they can be witnessed without me falling into the algorithm’s validation trap.

This isn’t about cutting off connection. I’ll still talk to my friends, run my weekly home circle, and nurture my community. It’s about pulling my energy back from a system that thrives on keeping us hooked, comparing, scrolling.

The Void as a Container

Maybe this year away from social media will be the gestation period for something that needs time to grow in the dark. A book. An oracle deck. Something I don’t want to talk about too soon for fear of scattering the magic.

Maybe I’ll return to social media in a new way. Maybe I won’t. The truth is, I don’t know — and that’s okay.

What I do know is that I want to create, connect, and share from a place that feels nourishing and aligned. Not because the algorithm demands it, but because it’s my truth.

If you’ve read this far — thank you for witnessing me.

And maybe, just maybe, in reading this you’ve felt the whisper to witness yourself, too.