Alchemising Emotions into Creativity

One of the biggest lessons I have learnt on my own journey of self discovery, self love and self acceptance is that actually feeling my feelings, means I can learn from them and move through them.

We all have a fear of feeling our feelings, even the good feelings.

Who has ever held themselves back from loving someone fully, as you are worried you will get hurt?

Who has ever lost a loved one and thrown themselves into ‘action’ so they don’t have to stop and feel the weight of that grief?

We all do it. It’s human nature to protect ourselves, and that all it is. Our inner child, our ego, our human self trying to keep us safe.

But here’s the thing, blocking those feelings doesn’t keep us safe, its limits us.

When you limit the amount you are allowed to feel, you limit the amount of life you are allowed to live. If you are unable to fully live, the good, the ecstatic, the bad, the ugly, then you are doing yourself and the time you have on this earth, in this life time, a disservice. 

Stepping into the dark, the place where those hard feelings are, is an act of self love so big, it’s easy to feel scared of the enormity of it.

You look into the abyss and can’t see the bottom, can’t see the way out, can’t see any hope. But if you trust, if you surrender to the dark, let it engulf you. You will end up realising that in the dark, you are held. In the dark you are safe. In the dark no harm can come to you as YOU are there.

All this time you have been giving your power away. Fearing the darkness as this all consuming thing, when really yes, it is all consuming, BUT, it is so much more. It consumes all of your fears, and if you let it, it will turn them into hope. 

If you actually sit and listen to those thoughts, if you hold yourself with so much love and compassion, with a knowing that those voices are just scared voices trying to keep you safe, then you see that you can let them go. You can strike that match within, and light a fire inside yourself.

This fire doesn’t hurt, it isn’t there to destroy you, its here to guide you. It’s here to light your way out of the darkness.

That spark, that fire is YOU. It is all you need to be able to come out of the darkness with your head held high, knowing you have burnt away all those limiting and fearful stories, that now you have found yourself and now you are in charge of carrying your own light, that NOW you can truly shine.

You surrendered to the darkness and you found yourself.

Now as you stand tall in the knowledge that you can do, be and have anything you desire, you can use the knowledge and the lessons from the darkness for your highest good and the highest good of all.

Now you have alchemised those dark emotions, fears and thoughts into a bright light, you can shine and others will be drawn to you. You can share your journey. You can share your story. You can share your teachings. You can use it all to CREATE.

What you create is up to you. You could create a beautiful piece of art. You could create a course or workshop to teach others the things you have learnt. You could create a piece of music, a selection of nutritious meals. You can create ANYTHING.

Using this energy of dark into light, you can share whatever your heart and soul is calling you to share, through creativity in all forms.

Who knows, hopefully this will inspire others to do the same. I certainly hope so!

Jenny xx
A creative soul healer, holding a scared space for you to alchemise your emotions into creativity.